I have a few thoughts from today.

1.  If you don’t watch How I Met Your Mother, you should start.  Granted, I only watch the re-runs, but the show rocks.  Barney Stinson is my favorite character.  Sal and I live by the following quote, “When I get sad, I stop being sad and be AWESOME instead.  TRUE STORY.”  I feel better today than I have in months!  Really.  Cameron is sleeping very well for us – 9 to 10 hours at night now.  She really is an angel.  Jameson and Chase are doing great.  They love school and are just two happy kids.  We’re the luckiest parents in the world.

2.  I’m going to be the first person, ever, who gets fat during chemotherapy!  Thank you all so much for the wonderful meals and gift cards.  You have no idea how much we appreciate the help.  My aunt told me that God sends us angels when we need them.  I truly feel surrounded.  I don’t know what I’ve ever done to deserve such kind people in my life.

3.  Can someone please write to Bobbi Brown and ask her if she makes a “chemo concealer”?!  I just don’t ever want to look sick while this is going on.

4.  Which leads into this topic – the wig!  I probably shouldn’t even be blogging about this but what the hell, right?  It’s a part of what’s going on.  I received the call yesterday that my cranial prosthesis is in.  Nope, I’m not kidding!  Some insurances pay for wigs so that’s how they refer to them.  What is this world coming to?!!!  Anyway, I guess I’m going to buy one, but I just can’t picture myself wearing one.  I have a bunch of funky hats that seem much more Barb.  Thoughts, anyone?  Please, don’t hold back!

5.  If anyone out there has any good music mixes, let me know.  I’d love a copy.  I listen to Pandora quite a bit and have been drawn to songs that get me psyched and in a good frame of mind.  I’ve also been listening to songs that have special meaning, too.  For example, I saw a Storytellers featuring Jason Mraz just days before my diagnosis, unbeknownst to me.  He wrote his song, The Remedy, for his best friend after he was diagnosed with cancer.  His friend is 10 years in remission!  Good Life by One Republic is the song that Cameron was born to.  The OB usually has music on in the OR during a C-section and this was Cam’s song.

I really feel so good today……like I can conquer the world.  I believe that cancer doesn’t stand a chance.  Sal and I discuss often how much of this is a mental battle, too.  If I believe it, it will happen.  Sal and I still have so much to teach our kids together that I WILL beat this disease.  I just keep picturing myself holding Jameson’s baby girl, dancing with Chase to Beautiful Boy at his wedding, and being there when Cameron wins the Nobel Prize for curing cancer.

My recovery, as Barney would say, “It’s gonna be legend…..wait for it…..and I hope you’re not lactose intolerant because the second half of that word is DAIRY!”

LIVESTRONG and God Bless!